The Easily Forgettable Face

Source: https://www.1stdibs.com/art/paintings/abstract-paintings/rozanne-hermelyn-disilvestro-hidden-faces-search-hope-abstract-oil-painting/id-a_6978912/

People who have known me for a short time would describe me either as a cheerful person (trust me some people have called me that) or a socially awkward introvert. People who have known me for a relatively longer period would call me a mostly-frustrated-with-the-world person. People who have known me for a very long time, who have seen me in my best and worst have described and will continue to describe me as a good-hearted person who has been through a fair share of experiences both good and bad (Again, trust me I am not kidding! People have said that). Well, the next and the most important question would be - what do I think of myself? 

I think of myself as a person who has the "easily forgettable face" like the person who would just slip out of your mind, not intentionally, but just happens. I have never really gotten close to understanding why. Even the people who call themselves my friend, even people who do actually believe that I am a nice person would "conveniently" forget. I don't blame them because its me who has the "easily forgettable" face right? 

They are all very good people. People who have helped me when I really needed it. So, its just that tiny distance my personality did not tread to make an impression so that their brains wouldn't forget my face when the next time they plan to do something. I may or may not want to cross that tiny little distance any more! I think I am going to just learn to be comfortable at this mild dissociation rather and continue to be the "easily forgettable face" who is also a good-hearted cheerful person whom you might find frustrated with the world at other times ;)